ThE wOrLd iS sPiNNiNg 24 HoUrS

Recollection of Memories

2011-02-26T16:57:00.003+08:00

hi. yeshhhh I know its been long time since I last blogged. in case you guys are wondering what I am doing recently, I am now having attachment at NYP, MSC Studio. some kind of retail shop gathered various items from Sasa, Faceshop, Giordano, Ameba, etc. you can imagine how issit like as CK Department Store, OG, or Takashimaya.

wells, today is saturday = off day from work (MSC Studio).

say me nth better to do or what. had some recollection of memories today. went back to ITE College East. hmms shall start from Business Blk de tutorial rooms..... sad to recall back eh. I see those tutorial rooms I will recall those days working on accounting questions with my clique (chiew ping, hui shan, cai ting & xiu yu). THOSE ROUND ROUND TABLES!!! Omg nostalgic nostalgic..... so long never meet up le due to everyone of us are kinda busy with our own things I guessed......

and then I recalled a particular tutorial room.... it was the room where we had costing lesson back in 2007 I think.... still rmb those sweeties surprised me in that room on my birthday. *cries*

hmms then I think of melissa..... idk why last time we don clique tgt in class... but now in NYP I actually told you abt my problem of dropping out poly.... and sometimes those distressing lunch/dinner we meet up on weekends...... thanks lady for ur encouragement.... really thinking of how come we same class in ITE fer 2 years but in poly then so close really feel like crying :(

alrites enough of class.... next place I saw at CE is the technology blk..... oh wells, I miss those days looking for valerie, kamala, christina & rachel during lunch breaks... those funny things we did cos got kamala ard? lol. and would like to apologies to my sweeties clique sorry last time always nvr join you ladies for lunch :'(

well.... me & valerie were classmates in sec sch so no doubt I know her. rachel was my classmate in Nitec Office, and also from chinese orchestra so no doubt I know her also... as fer kamala, she was rachel's sec sch classmate, and same class with valerie in ITE. and christina is same class with valerie & kamala in ITE as well...... okok I know is a messy connection, but I miss those days playing/doing silly things with them during lunch breaks :'(

and the last place I saw is the music/dance place...... no need elaborate further. forever will miss those practices/performances. I wanted to dropby inside. but thinking unlikely got any practise and familiar juniors I know, so I didn't. and....... I got a feeling, I got a feeling that CO has closed down :'( my heart seriously ache alot to imagine that.... afterall my batch has once embarked CO as pioneer batch, and has created nice memories as well. can I cry as well? :'(

alrites enough for ITE College East. next is sec sch. I saw Ngee Ann Sec along a bus ride..... idk how come I don have much deep memories and feelings in me when I saw sec sch.... perhaps I miss those CO pracises/performances that's all.......

haiz.... would like to thank all my friends fer being there during ups & downs esp in ITE. the cert may not be good than poly....... but life & memories were so much fun and nice back then compared to life in poly now...... T.T

dear friends, if one day I were to lose my memories, pls tell me that you have once came across in my beautiful memories :)

2010-12-07T18:29:00.002+08:00

f-e-e-l-i-n-g.

well feeling.. feeling...
this feeling is weird.
or rather I feel weird now.

ytd got a call from sch CRMCC Supervisor.
which means to say I am starting internship soon.

and waiting for God to decide whether I am doing intern at sch or UOB Centre.
have a very mix feeling abt this.
so the interview at UOB pass or fail to me doesn't matter.

feel very much to work at UOB Centre if can.
cos can like "getaway" from sch?
den somehow is better to be working with the real-world adults out there?
I don know.
haix if got pass then say 1st ba.

blog updated.

2010-10-30T00:59:00.003+08:00

hi.
long time no blogblog liao.

sem 2.2 has started.
1 week liao.
classical TEP.

ahhahaha.
thought classical will be a very xiong internship training lesson.
but...
actually, for a START, quite slack =x

like this was how it went.
mon, tues, wed, thurs, fri, sat, sun.
go sch 2 days, off 2 days, go 1 day, off 2 days~
and oh! monday got 3hrs break.

LOL. go work internship also don have tt long lunch break ah!

but God save me.
classical => open lappy, appear offline msn, go fb chat, countdown to lesson END.
thrash my life.
how am I going to get on with coming up days -.-!

2010-10-09T16:31:00.003+08:00

hi.
suppose to be at Malacca now for a getaway.
but due to godma & godpa house last min got some domestic electricity problem,
in the end nvr go :(

nvm...
since now having vacation...
so is not agony here in sg afterall.

and ytd...
I WORE GRADUATION GOWN~~
hahaz.
love it love it.

2010-09-28T10:16:00.002+08:00

alrightys...
for those who are wondering how am I doing in poly...

I can tell u I CLEARED Semester 2.1.
yea...
although passed only at a satisfactory rate...
but I am more delighted that I no need REMODULE than anything.
the thot of remoduling doing projects and cramping my brain all over again...
my abalone sharkfin can come out really~
hahaz.

shall end here.
will update again soon~

going for driving lesson...
tp test on friday not going expect so much...
think same philosophy as towards exam results...
whenever I think I won't make it, but it turn out the other way.
vice versa.

so yea, tp test...
shan't carry too much hope in it either (:

2010-09-18T10:19:00.002+08:00

hmms...
been some time since I last updated yea....

hahahaz.
ytd had my 1st op in my life...
but is a minor one...
dental de...

wells although is just a minor one...
but as I mentioned is a 1st time I having such surgery like that...
1st agony sort of thing in my life...

and the day before I am so chua dio...
till after the op also still feeling scared....

anyways,
pic below may be erxin....
not for the faint-hearted........

DANG DANG DANG DANG!
My teeth.... whahahahahaz

2010-08-11T21:59:00.002+08:00

received a letter not long...
from my Diploma in Biz Admin sch...
regarding graduation ceremony on 8th October...

donno sld I go anot...
I would prefer to go...
since those days studying at 2 schs is NOT EASY.......

but den like very awkward...
cos if nth goes wrong, 1.5year ltr poly de still awaiting...

so is like I don feel like attending Diploma graduation 2 times.
like pple remarry.....................
=.=
very awkward >.<

how? how? how?
sld I go...?

think I want to go so badly~
cos...
may get a chance to see robin, shukoor, ferlin, val lim, bestie rachel & val liang they all~ :D
hahahaz.

hint hint to val liang...
let me know if u are going!

2010-08-08T01:12:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD~!

Hmms hab not been updating for a long time~ LOL.

okays...
meet up with supposed-to-be study khakis which is on 7Aug.
fa sheng & cheryl.

and study session hab been converted to FREESTYLE MADNESS???
hahahaz.

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was supposed to study biz finance at the airport...
end up.....
fs donno doing what on his lappy...
den cheryl on lappy den talk sense alot of things with me...
haix...
there are some things I sld learn to either let go or stick with it.....

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CONCLUSION,
WE NEVER STUDY TODAY~

LOL.
headed to Popeyes for dinner.
sigh....
been thinking too much until I donno what am I doing......

went to counter order my meal n cheryl's.
den in my hands got handphone cos replying pple msg halfway.
and the $10 cheryl passed me.
end up I forget to TAKE MY WALLET!! lols ><
got to queue again.......

haix..... seriously I sld stop thinking of those have de don have de :(

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after dinner headed to Marina Barrage...
and guess what?
WE WALK FROM MARINA BAY MRT STATION TO MARINA BARRAGE.
Hahahahaz.
POWER.
an insane & NICE workout =x

freaking long sia the route.......
can walk until legs ache....
there got bus we never take...
we THOUGHT is jux a short walk......... ><
lols. think go barrage go by car better =x

anyways, we caught the fireworks unexpectedly!
but the rehearsal ones are kinda bored~
every 15mins 1 time.
ji tek ji tek majam lao sai. LOL

den we donno when will it end. *the 15mins fireworks course*
so fs buay paiseh say he himself is PAUL THE OCTOPUS...
Predicted that the last course of 15mins fireworks will stop at 10:30pm.

and true enough...
10:30pm really got fireworks.
and it was the last round! LOL.
fs u can go change name to PAUL le lahx.......
hahahaz.

camwhore alot at barrage.
pics are uploaded on facebook! :) :) :)

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I think I don want quit sch le...
what pple say are true.
year 2 class is simply fun...
think I am beginning to enjoy ^^

hopefuly TEP won't drift me, sweetie shanshan aka SUNSHINE, and my hangout khakis cheryl & fa sheng!
:D :D :D :D

2010-07-25T09:58:00.002+08:00

projects are officially ended~
YAY OUT LOUD~~!!

This week will be last week of July le.
1 week 1 month.
can start mugging ardy!

hahahaz.
semester 2.1 fast sia...
blink blink eye like that pass le.

hmms...
year 2 class seems great~~
had a small group of badminton outing, steamboat outing & karaoke??
the karaoke de I swear is I randomly jio pple go de can =.=
hahahaz. random... but FUN! :D

but really donno is random or MAD...
maybe I miss those days studying with robin, shukoor, ferlin & val they all...
so to refrain me from flashing back...
I am really MAD ever since I study 2.1....... ><
haix.........
wanna be occupied and stop thinking about those 有的没的 :(:(

anyways...
this 1 week 1 month I hope history won't be repeated again.
like the previous semester mugging for exams.....
if I mug alone, I really will think of those days........
sigh.
I don like this feeling.
detest this feeling to the core.

2010-07-11T02:34:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD~!

I FINALLY PASSED MY FTT~
Yea after 4 attempts ><
I got nothing to hide.

hahahaz.
made a pact with melissa to go for TP tgt......
lols.
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

Think next week onwards de every thursday...
I sld go for driving lesson liao.
left 3 more lessons.....
but I think I will need more than that.

hahahaz.
gonna ask the UNCLE to revise S Course, Parking & Directional with me.
cos I like forget le.
THANKS TO PROJECT AR :(

So yea...
every thurs take people go for elective...
I shall go for driving lesson.
tsk tsk

2010-07-06T23:52:00.002+08:00

shag...
done with biz finance & biz law project today.

screwed it up for biz law :(
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

after handing in biz finance...
saw melissa.
den headed to mac for some h2h talk......

I seriously almost couldn't hold back my tear....
really give it all le.
thanks sweetie for listening to my rantings.......

cried on the way home in bus again :(
as thinking...
last time in ITE always clique with the girls chiew ping they all.....
but nvr will I thought in poly...
melissa will be the one who is really sitting down & talking to me......

I donno how to say....
but yea really, thanks a million sweetie (:

2010-06-28T20:45:00.003+08:00

had ITE Chinese Orchestra outing ytd~!
:D

and ITECO Outings are always so fun as ever!
be it small clique, or large clique.
hehes.

went Sentosa Siloso beach for a picnic.
aftermath walkwalk ard Universal Studio.
then headed to Vivo City for Partyworld!

and at the same time celebrated Yeng Ling's birthday in advance!
SURPRISE = SUCCESS~
YEAH
Y(^.^)Y

hmms...
like so great can.
nvr thought my 1st trip ard Universal Studio will be with ITECO.
hahahaz.
I don even go Underwater World with my sec sch CO de say.
:/

and ytd was the 1st time I went singing with ITECO as well.
I don even did that with sec sch de.
except for maybe Jess I think?
hahaz.

thinking back...
really feel bad for quitting CO for 1 mth that time :(
is not becos I got no commitment.
is becos I don have the other C...
Confidence.....
haiz.....
anyways, dumb me silly me :/

2010-06-25T00:23:00.003+08:00

I suddenly,
think I have the courage.
I want ask shukoor, robin, ferlin & val lim all go for some drink!
:D

my PRIMARY 5 classmate has KIC with me on fb.
and we DON'T really hala with each other last time :/

so yea... why not?

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I am like in between the mountain and ocean.
I donno how I am feeling recently
:(

this term break has made me realised alot of things.
poly 1st year & 2nd year class are very DIFFERENT~

I donno how all the random stuffs had started.
or rather who started all the random stuffs.

hahaz.

from badminton session.
to "hala" nonsense with another biz finance grp??
lols.

unlike me.
but I feel psycho esp with that biz finance grp.
and after psycho,
I feel much lighter.

God, pls direct me more often from now.
I really donno my feelings now :(

2010-06-17T00:59:00.004+08:00

until now.....
at least for a first time...
I see enjoyment in poly life~
hahaz.
picture will describe (:

random?
I think so too.
but is just simply great to chill out esp on a breezy evening~
:D

I think God may seems to take some things away from me.
since the day I hab not seen my previous study khakis.
but seems that God is trying to make my life more fulfilling & enjoyable.

2010-06-06T23:12:00.003+08:00

HELLO!
Went for Jess wedding lunch today~

WOOTS~
Congratz to Jess and her hubby! :D

like so cool lahx...
finally get to go for some wedding occasion.....
hahaz.

hmms...
saw quite a no. of nass people ard other than my clique...
saw xue qi & my pipa batchmate hui zhu~
nice to see them ard~ ^^

2010-06-02T15:34:00.001+08:00

OMG.
JAY ZHOU TAKE PICTURES WITH MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS IS DAMN CHIO CAN.

2010-05-29T23:15:00.002+08:00

nowadays my mind is bloody in a whirl when I meet up with pple.
and after meeting I feel like crying :(

anyways, take for instance...
just meet up with ite classmate melissa today.
went out to Esplanade library and study.
aftermath, had dinner tgt at Glutton Bay.....

is like donno why...
always got this thinking that even though we don clique tgt in ite...
but nvr did I thot we will meet out for study session ;)

den ite clique will always come into my mind.......
and realise I very long nvr meet them le.
haiz....

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den on the way home,
bumped into sec sch friend valerie.....
and...
that reminds me I very long nvr meet sec sch clique le.
sigh.

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and I donno why...
perhaps is still due to long hours of study DAILY....
I am still missing the previous study khakis.
robin, shukoor, rachel they all.......
haiz.

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whatever shit I am doing now,
I loves & misses my friends~
T.T

2010-05-28T11:57:00.002+08:00

Talk to me
You speak with me
Don’t sink before you rise, baby
Don’t fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels a world away

Who’s to say, we’ll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don’t want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that will never change
Look, I bought your favorite ice cream
I don’t want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
Where I know I won’t forget

And now, who’s to say, we’ll be okay
We will make it through the night
Don’t want to wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we’re the same
And I know that will never change
Look, I bought your favorite ice cream
I don’t want to see it melt away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same
Baby, just talk with me
Cause I want you to stay here with me
That I want you to stay here with me

2010-05-26T00:56:00.002+08:00

suddenly feel that my privacy like being invaded.

those with pro antenna or what....
u all know can le.
but do not have to breathe a word out to pple who are clueless.
thanks.

no big deal about that's it.

2010-05-23T10:46:00.002+08:00

MAY's a shiok month yo!
this weekend's a 3-day.
fri-sun.

next weekend's the same too.

hahahaz.
catch up with val for dinner ytd.
went Katong Village for dim sum at oldhkteahouse.
was so full after the dinner can.
*BURP*

Val, don say I nvr blog le ar! :D

Hmms... can't wait for 12 June to come~
*hint hint to val*
whahahahaz.
go organise kks. hahaz

2010-05-16T14:18:00.003+08:00

today morning when "reading" the bo zua...
I sees a big big pic of Jay on the front page of Life~
Y(^.^)Y

...................

AND.........

not long.......
classmate Fa Sheng told me Jay's new album is OUT~!
thanks dude :D
(I think he's the only one in class besides me that will listen to Jay's songs)

hahahaz.
can't wait to purchase 跨时代 this week :d

2010-05-15T21:54:00.000+08:00

终于在眼泪中明白,

有些人一旦错过就不再…

2010-05-14T23:22:00.003+08:00

TGIF~!

Hahaz.

school was LOL today.
had ECRM Tutorial in the morning.

and it was real SIAO~
hahahaz.
I not saying the lecturer was siao...
but is the way she conduct the lesson.....

I donno why...
trying hard to control from being LOL.....
cos I see the lecturer I really want to LOL.

she was like communicating with us by typing words.
as she got sore throat cannot talk...
so end up I stare blank at the screen like watching cinema......
and I was trying very hard to control.....
when I saw what she typed...
"Example, if I design a rice cooker that can talk???"

lols. alrites.
this is a random post.
the LOL Tutorial makes my day~

hahaz.
Happy TGIF!
Have a great weekends ahead~ =)

2010-05-12T20:49:00.002+08:00

just realised something today.....

recently feel that it is difficult to trust people ard me....
haiz....

seriously...
return me my previous AWESOME study khakis =(
let me know what is the meaning of TRUST again.

2010-05-10T19:46:00.002+08:00

wiki presentation was over~

considered like awesome ar.....
from so clueless.....
then managed to do SOMETHING out really....

hahaz.
thanks god this week got no ICT homework.
just read through the E-Test & tutorial D......
Finally that SAINT is giving us a break :/

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where are all of you? =(

2010-05-09T00:22:00.002+08:00

back-ed fr0m sec sch gathering.
at pasir ris park, mid summer night breeze.

dinner-ed with zheng yi, annabelle, melissa(nas),
and the guys - louis, shun de & piao xian.

shared a jug of vodka with louis & px.
but me & louis drink the most. LOL

jess & her boy came to join us aftermath.

shiok.

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I really feel like going to the Student Admin office & take that withdrawal form..........

weekends....
if I am not occupied with any tutorials or projects.....
I miss THEM again......

I don like this feeling......
real sux mans. =(

2010-05-06T21:45:00.002+08:00

hi.

random post.

pretty like EFMA tutorial today~
the lecturer/tutor asked we all to do class exercise.
then submit to her.

time passes REAL fast when u are asked to do assignments & submit in class.
esp ACCOUNTING...
can do until totally forget about eating lunch le.

reminds me of accounting lessons at College East :D

no wonder pple always say...
those who work in accounts department will tend to have gastrits problem.
always skip lunch............

at least this semester better.......
shoo-ed away ECONOMICS~
right now, just need to focus on...
2 accounting modules.
3 theory modules.
1 language module.
and ICT.

but I just hate ICT.
don ask me why.
add on to monday blues nia :/

2010-04-28T18:12:00.003+08:00

today had sch for only 2hrs 8am-10am.
no NE lecture... SHIOK....

Den random..........
thought of doing something else after sch.......
but I ended up chatting & slacking with melissa.....
and by the time I am sooo sleepy to do anything le.

nvm... will get the thing done by tmr~ hahaz.

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anyways, donno why after chilling with melissa...
on the way home in bus I feel like crying =(

maybe becos back at ite we like don clique tgt...
same class & same cca somemore....
but nvr did I thought mel will be the one we have same goal & hope...
that is graduate from poly in 2012...... :)

once again...
I feel that I am so dumb for not treasuring those days in ite =(

I donno why I always have to been through this...
I don like the feeling...
terrible... it feel so sux & lousy =(

in ite, I am so nostalgia in sec sch days.
esp CO....

in psb, I am so nostalgia in ite days.
those accounting lessons & CO....

now in poly, I am so nostalgia in psb days.
those days doing projects & studying with robin, shukoor, rachel, ferlin & val lim.
and those days hala-ing with val & hiral......

haiz......

珍惜当下, 活在当下

2010-04-26T21:39:00.002+08:00

I am trying hard to adapt........

really trying hard....
or at least.......
I felt year 2 class is much more livelier........ ;)
after bonding awhile & doing up business finance tutorial with group members.
as we will be presenting for the next lesson.

To Passerby:
I am really appreciate for your concern. but some things wasn't as easy as what u think. if u are someone I know Not in poly... my life is just as complicated like that. some things is NOT easy to forget.... really... not easy...

if u are someone I know in poly year one, then I swear u don't know me well. I don really mention abt my personal life to the extend. but 1 thing for sure, at least I understand how some year one classmates are feeling now... like feeling sux & lousy being splitted into different specialisations in year two. why? cos pple ard are NO LONGER the same.

if u are someone I know in poly year two, then I have got nth to say. sch has just started for a week. how well do u know me?

2010-04-25T10:17:00.003+08:00

first week of school has passed......

hais.......

hmms...
am still missing those good o' days =(

like 3 more months left...
may, june, july.......

can I tell them I cannot cope?
can I tell now?

really wanna study BoC Management with some awesome people again.
difficult to find someone I can trust & rely on now these days.
haiz......

2010-04-20T20:35:00.003+08:00

chalet on Labour Day weekends.

YES?/NO?

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if only my vacation wasn't screwed up,
I may be moving on happily now within this 2 years.

Miss those good o' days =(

2010-04-17T10:45:00.003+08:00

2 years is approaching.

losing something really soon...
hais

will we pull through this 2 years obstacles?

2010-04-16T00:13:00.002+08:00

continuing Poly year 2.
sch's starting next monday.

got into CRM.
TEP Semester 2.2.
good lah.
can no nid take 2.2 exam paper as 0.2 exam paper is always difficult.
hahs.
2011 Chinese New Year won't get affected (:

I shouldn't be complaining much since TEP is 2.2.
but like WTF I got into German for elective?
Thanks God.
confirm HaLa sai one.
does International Cross Cultural really EXIST???

2.1 timetable as follows:
Monday: 9am~1pm. No break.
Tuesday: 10am~4pm. Break 12pm~1pm.
Wednesday: 8am~5pm. 4hrs Break 10am~2pm. 3hrs of National Education 2pm~5pm.
*Wednesday is hell. lame shyt -.-"
Thursday: 8am~12pm.
Friday: 10am~4pm. Break 12pm~2pm.

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accepting something turn out to be losing another thing in return.

cause we are living in a world of fools breaking us down.

2010-04-14T20:24:00.004+08:00

YOZ!
Had a hell lots of FUN ytd~!
hahahas.

outing with iteco seniors lay tien & weng fong~!
whahahahas.
can say that ytd was the most HILARIOUS day I ever had.
our laughter were so contagious mans~!

lay tien LOL, I LOL. Den followed by weng fong LOL
:D :D :D

hahahas.
went to Safra Jurong for kbox in the afternoon~!
WOOTS~!
1st time co outing got go kbox~ v^.^v

the 2 seniors sing duet songs so sweet~
opps xD

after that walked over to Jurong Point walk walk.
nth much.
haas...
den trained to Jurong East.
shuttle bus-ed to IMM for dinner.
had Ajisen :P

aftermath shopped ard Daiso.
and back to Jurong East.
den trained back to East tgt.
becos of the long journey like very bored.
somemore it was really late like 10pm+ le.
not many people inside the train really...

AND SO...
The 2 crazy seniors & me ended up camwhoring inside the cabin.
HAHAs.
what a way to pass time uh. LOL.

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JIEJIEs~! thanks a million for all the lovely outings o!
becos of all these outings, my dis vacation was really GREAT~ ^^
beginning to love co outings more le.
hahahas.
JIEJIEs~ *I know very rou ma.. but u all will get used to it! xD
we must make a pact to catch up like every once in a month OK!
Cannot be like past 2 years le.
hahas. no good no good. LOL.

alrites. pictures time! ^^

2010-04-11T13:26:00.004+08:00

my.. weng fong.. lay tien.. xD

2010-04-11T12:25:00.002+08:00

college east chinese orchestra chalet ytd~!
simply enjoyed & had hell out of fun lah~ ^^

thanks lay tien & weng fong for coming~!
hahahas. u seniors were GREAT!
thanks a million for accompanying throughout the whole night~ ^^

went for the bbq in the evening~
outdoor was like erms sauna.... HAHA.
so after that went inside the room to slack+watch video clips+camwhore.
lols.

ltr in the night 3 of us went to walk walk ard...
hahahas. went into cheers.
bought some "drink" xD
after that went to slack at some benches at the chalet.
and cheers off with the drink~ ^^

den "left" the chalet at 12 to 1 plus.
but we didn went home orh~!
WE TONNED OVERNIGHT~!
Hahahahas.

but den was like nowhere to go...
so ended up go to the bowling arena & see pple play bowling at Ehub.
LOLs.
slack at there until 2 plus or so.
decided to WALK to tampines ltr on.

but still at downtown east, we bumped into Li Ling.
she's alone chilling out there gosh.
so decided to just stay there & chill with her~ ^^

chilled until like 4am.
headed to Mac for breakfast with Li Ling & her bf :)
left off at ard 5 plus.

Li Ling and her bf headed their own way.
den me & the seniors fulfiled our WALK to tampines~!
hahahas.

using those park connectors...
we can actually walk all the way from downtown east to tampines sunplaza park~!
whahahahas.
really had a hell out of fun with them during the walk lah~!
and lay tien's laughter was contagious 0.0
kept making me & weng fong laugh. LOLs

hahahas. so yea...
reached sunplaza ard 6 plus.
home-ed ard 7 plus.

really thanks a million to the seniors for the accompany throughout the whole night lahs~!
if not I won't know how to spend off the night either...
just don feel like going home.......
go home also insomnia. hais.....

AND.. Thanks a million to yeng ling for organising the chalet orhs~!
congrats & cheers to the chalet for EPIC SUCCESS~ v^^v
hmms...
maybe next round...
MALAYSIA TRIP~~~
whahahahas.

pictures will be up on next post (:

2010-04-08T13:47:00.006+08:00

donno why things has turned out to be this way...
can't stop crying when I am at home...
the only times I don cry is when I am outside for driving lessons.
=(

I thought I have sorted out myself.
I thought I am looking forward to poly year 2...
but I just can't do it...

God just love to make fun of people's thoughts & emotions ar.

still rmb 2 years ago de THIS MONTH...
I can't stop crying...
becos I can't enter poly...
in fact right after knowing the horrible posting results...
headed to ECP with bestie rachel for a drink.
and it was broad daylight some more...

but this year de now...
I can't stop crying...
that's becos I am so desperate to withdraw from poly.
I WANT BACK MY HAPPINESS!!

simply don understand why God loves playing this trick on me.

going poly used to be a sweet dream...
but it has now become a nightmare...
a nightmare of loneliness & boredom...

someone plz tell me going poly is just a dream...
so that I can just wake up from it & move on to my HAPPINESS~
Haiz.....

*****************************************************************

and robin smsed me not long ago.
he say I really jiat lat...
so I replied God's will...
den he say its not fix.. if I don't change it no one can help me.
=(

and hiral sister~!
even though we got age gap that she's only 17 or 18...
but she also understands me the most!
had a conversation 1 day ago.
what she advised me was all of that is my thoughts.

hiral: many of my frenz thier gpa is liek quite bad,,then they go private sch..
hiral: n u are alr 21..
hiral: so its better u do degre earlier!
me: yeah.. these are my recent thoughts too.. after my previous exam, n during dis 2 mths vacation
me: u understand me. i like u! (:

seriously if time can turn back...
I really don want to go poly...
I WANT TO MEET DORAEMON~!! =(

2010-04-06T01:55:00.001+08:00

wished that I am the one who is right here waiting so that it won't hurt much.

2010-04-04T14:52:00.005+08:00

hi~
I am back to my ownself.

hab decided to continue poly for 2 more years...
I know I can't just drop out like that.
dad & mum will be disappointed.
brother & tang jie will hate me for sure.....

ytd was indeed hurt alot...
cos I donno why...
if I don withdrawn from poly...
I feel that I have let go something.
but I just can't figure out what is that....

so.. speaking from the bottom of my mind...
looking forward to new semester, new happenings
(:

********************************************************

learn to let go.
it may hurt alot.
but after 2 years...
who knows what other good stuffs are still waiting for me ahead?
(:

2010-04-03T19:09:00.005+08:00

has finally spoken to my dad......

didn speak to him in detail about HUMAN NATURE.
just told him that I wanna withdraw from poly.
as I don think I want to pull through for 2 more years.
just for a Diploma.

I told him I want to study Degree.
if I go Degree also 2 years.......
might as well I go study Degree...
den straight away go out work.. right...

I even told him...
that in fact I really feel this way...
after I study Poly finish I don feel like study uni for 3 more years ardy.
simply too long way to go mans...

so this 2 years rather den I spent it on Diploma...
might as well I spent it on Degree...

YES, at 1st say want study poly de is me...
becos that was the time I am still holding on to ITE cert.
thinking that spent so many efforts in ITE..
of course is to go poly right...

so my parents allowed me to poly...
I thought they allowed becos of what I feel is better to do...
den just go for it.
that's why they got no objections...

but recently...
I simply think that ITE's really a history...
most important now,
is I want back my HAPPINESS!!

but just now when I called up for family meeting...
I then realised studying poly isn't my own business too.
they don want me to withdraw & give up like that.
they want me to make something proud of it.....
hais...

PROUD...
this word...
can exchange back for my happiness mah?
can chase away all the loneliness & boredom mah?
can exchange back for friends who are "reliable"?

I really scared to go through exam period again...
like that time the CNY period...
at somewhere studying alone in person...
but deep down I was so nostalgic....

anyway, nothing can be changed le.
don wish to fall out with my family either...
guess this the way destined to be ba.

but I just hate the feeling being protested.
like the whole family including brother are protesting against me.
can only have a good cry for now.
hais.........

2010-04-03T02:08:00.003+08:00

past few days robin like stalking me on msn.
straight away asking how? how?
how-ing up n down my screen.
like my name become "how" ardy.
>.<

kaes. back to serious.
I donno how the conversation become like this.
but really feel like crying again when I saw it.
in a flash, I am thinking....
even my own brother also nvr talk to me like that before.........

alrites then.
gonna brace myself up with plenty of courage tmr.
so that I can talk round my dad in withdrawing from poly.

I mean seriously..
all around this bush is due to HUMAN NATURE.
I really donno how to describe....
maybe I prefer studying with pple who are same age or older den me.
so that I feel they are "reliable" & I am "safe"...

speaking from bottom of my mind...
had good times in poly for the past one year.
but donno why... seeing the younger pple ard like reminds me of my past...
which I don think I got the courage to continue for 2 more years.
hais......

2010-04-02T10:27:00.002+08:00

though I have ardy made up my mind...
but seems that whatever it is...
it's still all over.
nothing can be changed.

in the first place...
can say that studying poly is given to me as a reward...
BUT...
MY HAPPINESS IS BEING TAKEN AWAY!! :( :( :(

I am not sure if I still got the courage.
to go through 4 more semesters of loneliness & boredom.
esp during exam week like the previous 2 semesters =(

guess it's destined to be this way.
God has given me something.
but my happiness is being exchanged for loneliness & boredom.

2010-04-01T18:22:00.004+08:00

went to get the brochures today.
met Ms Jocelyn Melissa.
and she explained to me.

since I studied Diploma before...
den I can be exempted from 1st year from the 3-year Degree course.
so I only need to study 2 years.

plus a 5% rebate for those who have also studied Diploma before.
like so tempted and I think I ardy no which way to go lah.

ITE effort's the past.
any relatives' bagua !@#$% is also the past!!

what I care now is whether I am happy or not!!
sorry. I may be selfish this way.
but I am the one who's living MY LIFE!!
Not my parents & relatives~!! >.<"

told mum abt it.
she don seems to have any objections.
ask me to tell my dad........

MY DAD...
if manage to cross his round.
then everything should be fine.

*pray hard for me*

2010-04-01T00:26:00.002+08:00

hi.
went out with nyp classmate sweetie shan today~!

after driving lesson met shan at woodlands.
and off we headed to orchard =)

went to watch When in Rome movie at Shaw.
damn funny to hell.
just like a normal love novel movie...
but it was like so funny that you can just LOL like nobody's business.
recommended for people who wanna enjoy some comedy.

me watched is wanna enjoy some "tourism"
I love Rome.
it is a nice country at Italy.
in fact, I love that country when I watch HK show.
冲上云霄...
where Vincent(Topman) always fly on & off to Rome!
hahahas.

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at this point of time...
if I continue poly...
I can only console myself that...

my driving lesson is at Woodland.
take a train down, reached.

my future dental appointments is at KTH Hospital.
take a train or 851 down to Yishun, reached.

these are only ways I can console myself.

2010-03-30T20:55:00.000+08:00

driving is the best remedy =)

2010-03-30T07:35:00.003+08:00

woke up at ard 6 plus.
really couldn't slept well last nite b.hell >.<
hope my eyes don't close during driving lesson ltr.
b.hell -.-

some sort of crying into sleep.
been quite some time since I did that uh.
those last few times was think poly exam week.
crying in the night of fear, boredom & loneliness.

I am so wanna study there. =(
a place with no age gap...
a place which I think it's gonna be fun...

but I donno how to bring this up to dad & mum.
although I've got the key to freedom...
but then ya...
must talk them round first =(

2010-03-29T23:19:00.004+08:00

have not cried for a long time.
seriously I cried.
really cried.

can't believe robin had advised me out of the blue.
he even called me up somemore...
advised me into going back to PSB for Degree studies.

not that he's brainwashing me.
but is I myself also feel like dropping out of poly.
and study Degree.
at Australia somemore.

but now...
if I KNOWS the answer to THIS...
I don't mind going through those good old times again.
I don't mind not going to Australia ardy.

the only thing I am very clear towards is...
I will be blissful.
mugging for exams with same old pals =)

recalling the mugging during CNY period for poly exams...
was really a nightmare & torture.
and that was the time I finally understand how lonely & boring can it be.

people always say it's better to study ALONE so can concentrate BETTER.
But I can't fucking do that.
cos when I do that...
I will just feel nostalgic.
and think of those mugging sessions with DBA classmates~ =(

so this poly vacation.
I tried to think alot abt what I can do.
which way I should go.

but I couldn't think of any answer.
I even tried "approaching" at Waterloo Guan Yin Temple.
but that doesn't work either. =(

I suddenly felt Mega-very lost.
but I think I know an answer halfway.

that is...
I am going down to PSB and register tmr.
to "chop" a place first...
then see whether I want anot.

2010-03-29T20:41:00.003+08:00

went driving lesson today~!
waas!
raining so heavy at woodlands.

and I drove under heavy rain for the first time :/
actually not that scary as I imagined.
just that things around me was so blur.
got to be extra careful!

hmms.. salute those who drives to Genting under the mist!

2010-03-23T20:53:00.002+08:00

got back exam results today...
I smoked through all the papers.
don have to take sup paper yeah~
I am not saying that I passed very well.

but u guys won't know how elated I am.
when I saw Macroeconomics & BSA.
at least I don have to take sup paper for Macro.
at least I don have to remodule BSA....
at least I don see a big big F!
Hahas.

what's my next step?
I am lost.

apply uni?
continue poly..? hmms... TEP sounds fun from what I heard....

2010-03-08T22:58:00.002+08:00

I can't decide which is better.
University of Newcastle?
or
University of Wollongong?

both are in Australia...
I am choosing between Bachelor in Accounting at UoN.
or Bachelor in Finance at UoW...

but it doesn't really matter much to me.
as long as I am in Australia....
is just that I donno which school to apply in :/

okay wadever.....
as long as I am really HAPPY this time round...
and not REGRET for wad I am going to do~!!

anyways I looking for Universities only lah...
haven withdraw from poly yet...
I still got abt 1.5 mths left.......

mum seems to be very supportive of me going Australia...
left my dad I haven tell him...
*sigh*
donno how to tell him either.
let nature take its course ba.

if really time can turn back...
I don wanna go poly......
hais...

2010-03-06T00:13:00.005+08:00

lay tien, rachel, me, weng fong xD

me & lay tien~ ^^

weng fong & me~!

me & rachel =)

lay tien & rachel

weng fong & rachel... the bassist & celloist xD

seniors~!

my, weng fong, lay tien

2010-03-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD~!

Today is the second time of the week I feel so happy lahx.
1st time was on sunday, Pipa outing.
and...
today is CO Outing with seniors lay tien & weng fong and juniors me & rachel~!
v(n.n)v

thanks a million to the seniors & rachel for making a day for us today~!
damn fun to the max lahs...
esp the seniors...
always made us laugh until like no tomorrow~ LOL!

******************************************************************

YAY! Kept ourselves occupied with boardgames at Dhoby Gaurt, Minds Cafe.
2pm to 6pm.
FUN sio! hahas ^^

aftermath headed to plaza sing foodcourt for dinner.
den walk ard the shopping centre.
rachel went off at 9pm.

left me and the 2 seniors.
and guess wad we did?!
we actually went to carrefour & bought some "drink"

u guys know wad I meant by drink hors...
yea so after buying, headed to Istana Park for our drinking session~!
whahahahas.
so fun lahx.
nice chatting with the seniors~! ^^

and oh!
not I suggested the drinking session de.
is lay tien who wants to drink~!
hahahahas.
so it was the seniors who taught me bad.
LOLs.
*joking joking* :D

anyways.. one day isn't enough~
wanna another round of Chinese Orchestra outing pls~~
probably at the end of march or beginning of april.
before I chiong for year 2 =(

ta-da!
shall post the pics taken today in the next post.
too many pics taken today~!

2010-03-04T11:23:00.002+08:00

MORNING WORLD~!

Hmms...
been like so long since I woke up early in the morning like 6am?
hahs.

today woke up at 6am.
bus-ed to alexandra hospital for dental treatment.

finally had the root canel treatment.
Zzz early morning tio-ed 3 jabs.....
but before the jabs...
I like the thing which the Dr rubbed through my gums~!
very fragnance lo...
like strawberry favour ^^

feel that I am no longer scared of injections le.
YAY!
Wo Zhang Da Le =)

2010-02-28T23:52:00.005+08:00

HELLO WORLD~!

OMGZ.
AM I DREAMING?
I AM SO OVER THE BLUE MOON~!
WHAHAHAS.
NTH CAN BE HAPPIER THAN THIS~ ^.^

My ite pipa senior lay tien finally meet up with me today~!
like so random lahs.

cos ytd after CO gathering...
dis morning thinking that I better treasure dis vacation.
catch up with pple who I nvr see for a long long time.

so I took an initiative to msg my senior.
and guess wad?
she immediately text back she can meet today~!
till den, zao-ed to harbourfront & meet her :D

and I really will nvr nvr forget our 1st pipa outing today~!
FUN sio!!
went into sentosa.
but nvr go universal that side lah.
just went to the beach to chill ^^

really enjoyed catching up with lay tien lahx.
best nice senior~ heehee ^^
*hugz*

pictures for the day~!

2010-02-28T01:09:00.001+08:00

dis holiday, if grandma was still ard, I will make it upon to see her everyday if I can.

2010-02-27T23:40:00.009+08:00

hi hi.

back-ed from ITE Chinese Orchestra gathering~!
hahas.
thanks yeng ling who organised this gathering.

FUN but like very random also...
2005 all of us came from different secondary schs...
den as at till now...
even though all of us graduated from ite le.
doing our own things but still got time to catch up like that.
like dreaming or wad? hahas

anyways dinner was at Cafe Cartel marina square.
den I sat right beside melissa...
and opposite of yeng ling...
so either I was like thinking of...
woah... 3 of us studying nyp, nvr thought we will dine tgt like that...
or...
woah... ite in class different clique but nvr thought we will dine tgt like that.

hahas.
I got alot of weird thinkings....

after dinner headed off to Esplanade for photo session.
lols.
shall wait for them to tagtagtag on fb.
=)

I want to catch up with alot of people during this vacation....

2010-02-26T22:49:00.001+08:00

simply got no luck with today's toto $10mil.
$_$

2010-02-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

exams over.

but I don feel any "holiday"...
perhaps the only difference is I can take a break from study.
to think & get my things done.

I am going to find a job.
if ok, I shall work on & den find a Degree.
but...
will things be the same if I study Degree?

hais...

anyways I wanna watch 72 Tenants of Prosperity on coming saturday.
but no one watch hong kong movie bodoh.
sians 1st time going to watch movie alone :(

2010-02-23T14:05:00.003+08:00

shag shag...

3 down 1 more to go...

practised stats until 2am last nite...
whereby the paper starts at 9am...

I wasn't liddat last time before PSLE maths paper...
if not...
I sld be working properly now le.
regretted bodoh :(

****************************************************************

anyways...

list of things I wanna do after exams!
- go work??
- go sentosa resort world explore.
- go for a drink....
- ktv singing session....
- go pasir ris park and play... the side where got alot of playgrounds de ^^
- chiong driving....
- watch finish HK Drama Born Rich....

2010-02-20T16:07:00.003+08:00

chionging for Macro now...

I am bored...

I feel like spamming pple pls.
hahahas.

and oh...
past few days memorising marketing...
I am still using the tactic which one of my senior taught me...
it really works...

any some more theory modules in future...
will not forget this tactic...

THANKS~! =D

2010-02-19T21:35:00.002+08:00

hi.

marketing exam is over~

smoked through the Consumer Buying Behavior topic...
of all the topics I detest that one.
very messy...
I can't differentiate if I am studying marketing or management...
and until I study that last topic...
I feel that marketing is talking bird language >.<"
*chirp.. chirp chirp....*
so I actually took a gamble not to memorise it, just read through only.

and congratz me...
that lecture is under Topic B, choose 2 out of 3...
so immeidately I see those asking abt adoption process..
I read the story also don want.
straight away proceed on to do segmentation & pricing~

hmms.. overall I think should be able to pass...
but I think I hope I fail...
cos everytime I hope I will pass but end up I will fail...
so dis time round, vice-versa...

**************************************************************

went swimming just now...
den when to "sit sit" awhile when I came up from pool...
can't believe I can actually fall asleep on the poolside/suntan chair....
till my mum got to come down & ask me go up eat dinner
-.-"

2010-02-16T20:42:00.000+08:00

was having a nap just now...
horrible dream.

dreamt of a gun shot =(

2010-02-15T21:06:00.007+08:00

I miss the seniors =(

am like crying & mugging at the same time now.
really detest mugging alone...
don like dis feeling.
*sigh*

feel like calling 1 of them out since he don celebrate CNY...
the other one got lah but if can come out den good...

ok I know I am very random or maybe selfish dis way...
cos they not conquering the 4 modules I am battling with...
but I am really very boring lahx >.<"

other pple I bet they are going round bai nian-ing...

sians! I am rotting soon~ omgzwtf

don mention abt pri sch.
start from sec sch den.
though I hab known alot of pple since sec sch until now...
but really no one can really motivate me to study except for the 2 seniors...

sec sch cleared by luck nia.
den proceeded to nitec office.
nitec office managed to clear by luck also.
cos I am so noob to bookkeeping accounting.
based on that module can flunk my GPA liao mans.
else I higher nitec cannot even go liao.

den when go higher nitec accounting that time....
got motivated to study den.
but I don think I got motivated by classmates.
is a lecturer her name is qcl I rmb....

kena taught by her for bookkeeping during nitec office.
den higher nitec 1st sem also kena taught by her.
but she really motivated me...
as in...
she like calling pple who she hab taught in nitec to present accounting answers to the class.
and that includes me~ hahs.

so since that time onwards in order not to present wrong answers...
I really made an effort to understand accounting better...
went digging out all the bookkeeping notes & paper she gave -.-"

so I kept the motivation with me until the last day of higher nitec.
and that leads me to where I am now (poly)......

after higher nitec continued to pursue a Diploma at tiong bahru...
and that was the time I hab really found classmates who can motivate me to study ok.
they are the 2 seniors I mentioned above...
really...
if not becos of them...
I will really rot & screw up all the modules like statistics, marketing, etc...
I don study those in nitec & higher nitec.
not to mention in sec sch as well.

that's why whenever or wherever I am studying alone now...
I still can't forget those days studying at amk macgarden.

hais..........

2010-02-15T14:04:00.003+08:00

4 modules to conquer...

from new year eve until now...
the only times I am out of my room is just...
eat, shit, bathe...

if only the library at esplanade is open...

I gets sick mugging in the same place at all times :/

2010-02-14T21:31:00.003+08:00

finally after my exams...
I got movie wanna watch...
wanna watch 72家租客...
cos got Bosco Wong ^^

and oh!
I wanna go to the casino after the exams.
nope, I don gamble.
I donno how.
but I just wanna take a look.
maybe play 1 round of jackpot also not bad =x

2010-02-14T12:05:00.004+08:00

woah.

last nite must really thank God for regaining back my energy...
to mug real hard for the coming exams.

like pple are counting down...
and I am mugging for macro & stats until 4am.
LOLs.
with kopi & pineapple tarts somemore.

great.
I hab regain back my energy as it was used to be when I was studying at simei & tiong bahru.
cos ever since I study poly I hab been turning in so early like 12am-1am?
lols

2010-02-13T23:14:00.001+08:00

Dragon.

lucky number is 6.
lucky color is white.

will get sick easily such as gastrit problem...
will have financial problems also...

so take care dragons~
and save aside money for rainy days o! =)

2010-02-11T12:03:00.002+08:00

heyo!

maybe things isn't as bad like wad I thought...

dis few days...
pre-exam natal...

been saying to my mum...
dat if I don get into the specialisation I want next year...
I want to study Degree...

I am very tempted to study through either University of Newcastle or Wollongong.
both are in Australia.
I mean the school..
the cert can complete & attain in singapore.
but of course if I am qualify, I wanna go Australia~~!!

told my mum she say must discuss with dad 1st...
I think my wish of dropping out of poly is coming true...
though I'd be letting everyone down.
SORRY :/

2010-02-10T19:56:00.004+08:00

today skipped writing skills.
just don feel like going...
like the project is done last week.

so own time, target...
finally headed down to Esplanade & mug for exams...
mugged for stats & macro...
in between think alot of things...

really don like this feeling.
I donno how to describe...
nostalgic?
loneley?
I guess is lonely ba...

1st time I am complaining lonely :/
seriously miss those days mugging with the 2 "brudders"...
maybe I hab relied too much on them...
as in motivation...

so now ask me go anywhere to study where I am alone...
I really can't stop thinking about mugging at amk macgarden....

*****************************************************************

went for some breezely session outside the esplanade after mugging.
I remember going there with 2 of them too.
broad daylight also.
den they say not bad that place...
so I ask them they nvr bring their gf there de meh.
hahas.

anyway, dis post is random :/

my mood is really bad now...

worst than last year when I am studying at 2 schools.

ARGH~~!!!

2010-02-09T16:32:00.003+08:00

Heaven Knows

Rick Price

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
Cause heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
Cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows

2010-02-09T13:31:00.003+08:00

I intended to go places just now.....

1st taking #70 from yck to esplanade library....
study like until 4pm...
den train to commonwealth stn.
go queenstown church to see grandma...
I miss her...
I want talk to her so badly =(
I want to ask her....
why the "sudden change"?

BUT...

when I was inside #70 my tooth suddenly pain again.
sometimes I really wish toothache is like heart attack.
can die straight from the pain =x
den don hv to see dentist, spend $$, do root canel.
save the trouble...

like see wtf lah.
can't do my stuffs I mentioned above =(

tmr EFW lessons.
may end early in 3hrs or 4hrs until 12pm.
will I be able to fulfil the things I want to do tmr?
let's see =)

2010-02-08T17:11:00.002+08:00

hmms morning had mass revision lecture for stats.

which last until 11am.
just nice.
no need to worry if the lecture will clash to my dental appointment at 11:30am.
as they ask me to go at that time cos slot full le so can't go at 12.

eh first time went to see the school's dental clinic...
lols.
if not becos I am so desperate to have a referral letter from them.
thinking, being a student...
it may den be cheaper to go hospital for root canel treatment =x

hmms very distinct between what health medical & business students are studying.
its like when I went there for treatment just now...
they seems to be like talking alien language among themselves.
which I totally got no idea -.-"

but overall...
can see the skills & potential in them ba.
price cheap also.
$7 for examining, cleaning, polishing & flossing.

den was like thinking...
actually study dental also not bad one.
if only I study nursing or some medical courses back in ITE =(

2010-02-06T00:36:00.003+08:00

hi.

I am tired and is suppose to be in bed now...
but again...
I can't turn in.
things flashed back again...

was thinking of my paternal grandma...
hmms..
she's with Jesus up there.....

but sometimes I really want to ask daddy, mummy, uncles & aunts.
why things have changed.....

IF time can really turn back....

I wish I can spend more time with grandma when she's still ard...
to understand things better...
though I am ardy an adult but alot of things I still donno...
*sigh*

and IF time can really turn back...

I wish I never go poly & just enjoy the last 4mths.
den go out to work awhile follow by pursue a Degree =(
isn't it better this way?
hais...

2010-02-04T20:56:00.002+08:00

cried in the bus on the way home today...
hais...
silly me =(

maybe is really after projects finish loads are off.
besides coming exams I hab got nth else better to think -.-"

so just now when #76 was stopping at the bustop...
the bustop that is a traffic light away frm the S11 at amk...
I think of the walk they always accompanied me to the bustop.

really miss those days studying at amk macgarden.

just another memory flashed back again.

2010-02-03T17:26:00.002+08:00

I'll Remember You - No Secrets

It has been so long since we have talked
I hope that things are still the same
hoping they will never change
cause what we had can't be replaced
don't let our memories fade away
keep me in your heart for always

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what you're goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

I promise you I won't forget the times we shared, the tears we cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again someday
Even though we go seprate ways

You made me believe
that I can do almost anything
You stood right by me
through the tears through everything

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

If the day should come when you need someone
(you know that i'll follow)
I will be there
Don't ever let there
be a doubt in your mind
'cause I'll remember you, you

I'll remember you,
and baby that's forever true
you're the one that I'll always miss
never thought it would feel like this
I'll be there for you,
no matter what your goin' through
in my heart you'll always be, forever baby
I'll remember you

Forever baby, I'll remember you

2010-02-03T15:48:00.004+08:00

projects do finished le.
had last presentation for the year.
EFW...

hmms was glad that Mdm Pat understand wad I was talking abt.
despite me having flu den the ppt slides so little words =x
cos she like say good that our group has talk abt the utensils thingy.
den I was like...
isn't that my slide? oh yay she understand wad I am talking abt~ xD

********************************************************************

den finally after so many donkey months...
finally got the time to go back PSB collect my DBA cert.....

hmms I should be happy...
but why issit the other way round?
instead I am not happy =(

when I am at PSB just now...
my eyes are teary...
alot of things just flashed back lahx. =(

you guys may think that just a 1.5 year course nia...
why I am so nostalgic?

actually is not the matter of nostalgic.
is like brain & mind is not DEAD.
once things flashes back in YOU...
eventually u will start to feel emo...
and will start to cry...
this is something which I can't control.

like just now when I walked pass the library...
I think of those days doing projects with bestie & guys.

when I looked ard Blk A...
I miss those lessons with full-time class =(

when I am outside the sch gate...
I will think of the guys' smoking habit -.-"
I will think of during class break times walking opposite to 7-11 with bestie.

when I see the Mac at tiong bahru plaza...
I will think of that time having breakfast with bestie and girls.
during class break time somemore. HAHA
den by the time we go back class got a reproach from the HRM lecturer.
though is not correct but so fun lahx =x

see, is not that I am being random & nostalgic.
is just all the little movements add up...
equals to memories in me liao =(

misses.

2010-01-31T21:51:00.005+08:00

I AM FEELING VERY FUCKING UP FRUSTRATED NOW BECOS OF MY TOOTH!!!

YTD I JUST WENT TO DENTAL & REPAIR A TOOTH ON THE LEFT.

AND TODAY, A TOOTH OF MY RIGHT ACHE-ED AS WELL.

PAIN UNTIL I REALLY FEEL LIKE DYING.

AND SINCE LEFT TOOTH JUST REPAIRED CAN'T BITE.

RIGHT TOOTH PAIN LIKE HELL CAN'T BITE.

MY SET OF TOOTH IS PARTIALLY HANDICAPPED NOW.

I CAN'T CHEW ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR PORRIDGE/CONGEE.

SO FRUSTRATED.

AND,

I AM NOT A DIABETICS PERSON.

BECOS OF THIS "TOOTH" NITEMARE/NONSENSE,

I HAVE GOT TO AVOID EATING SWEETS/CHOCOLATES.

THIS TIME ROUND I REALLY MEANT IT.

AND WHY MUST IT BE ME???!!!

THIS WORLD IS JUST SO UNFAIR!!!

TMR STILL GOT SCHOOL!!!

AND WHO'S GOING TO BRING CONGEE FOR MY LUNCH TIME?

MY SCHOOL FOODCOURT/CANTEEN DON SELL CONGEE =(

GUESS WILL HAVE TO GO WITH EMPTY STOMACH TMR LE. =(

PLUS EXAMS IN LESS THAN 3 WEEKS.

WHAT A GOOD TIME TO HAVE TOOTHACHE EH?

BECOS OF TOOTHACHE I TOTALLY DON FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING.

TOTALLY DON FEEL LIKE STUDYING.

SO VEXING!!!!

I WANT TO DIE...
I REALLY WANT TO DIE CAN?!

2010-01-31T18:54:00.002+08:00

wu-weh...
:'(

its sunday evening now.
and I need a dental...

tooth's in pain again.
I am dying...

buddha please take me away NOW so that I won't have to suffer!!

2010-01-27T16:32:00.002+08:00

being sick is so terrible =(

how I wish you are here.

2010-01-26T17:33:00.001+08:00

very stylo different stylish...
project EFW, and excel haven even clear.
den today had "mass" revision for macroeconomics ardy...

exams are approaching soon...

where are you ?

2010-01-24T00:05:00.002+08:00

hi.

went dinner + drink with zheng yi today~!
and is at pasir ris park...
like so cool lah..

didn know east side got such a nice place to chill out...
the place is called Summer Breeze by the way...
indeed very windy ^^

hahahas.
drank vodka cranberry...
eh bestie, if I know I will ask u along too since u are craving for it ^^

*****************************************************************

anyway random...
guess wad?
I know sec sch frens for a decade le...
hmms.. didn know after graduate we den did alot of things.
like dinner, go out & chill etc...

thinking back...
we seldom even sit down in the canteen & have a cup of ribena before we graduate.
LOLs.

2010-01-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

sians...

tmr got to travel so far just to get back my own stuffs...
den head back to Esplanade to study...
so de mafan...
hais...

being a nice person & always giving in is so tiring can...
gonna stop for the time being............

2010-01-22T15:59:00.002+08:00

I feel insecure last nite.

and something really happened this morning.
don wish to mention abt it.

hais......

***************************************************************

I feel insecure becos...
I think I am so used to doing things with u all...
till today when I am alone doing with others......
I can't believe we were so randomly close before...
and I had so much fun with u all~

2010-01-20T20:06:00.002+08:00

hi.

went to Immigration building in the afternoon to collect NEW Passport.

YAY! I know how to take bus #13 from yck inter to Lavender~ ^^

YAY! my passport photo is much more... er-hems... NICER den my old passport.
I really do not like my PRI 6 photo :(

sians...
I wanna change IC photo...
when can change? when can change? :(

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5566 Zax Wang Ren Fu is on "3 Dishes 1 Soup" on channel 8 now~
omg is my eyes playing trick?
and =0!
I didn know he was married.......
hmms no wonder 5566 very long no new album le :(
all members busy with their own stuffs.........

2010-01-19T21:24:00.002+08:00

went home emo-ly after doing marketing project just now :(

did the powerpoint slides with shan until quite late.
was still on the way home in bus during 8plus just now.
sky dark le.
den random. between amk & pylb heavy rain...

sky dark + heavy rain = I feel like crying :(

partly maybe becos I screwed up abit for accounts ICA2 in the morning.
special journal~~ T.T
A is inside the drain now.........

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it realli hurts to think of someone u miss alot but u cannot cry becos pple around are younger :(

2010-01-16T16:45:00.002+08:00

next week choosing elective.
donno wad to choose...
French? German? Japanese?
International Cross Cultural Management? Family & Youth Work?

ji dan chao ya dan donno wad to choose sia...
most probably will choose family & youth work -.-lll

*************************************************************

I have got a question and dis question applies to only:

1) People I know who is ard my age, or...
2) People I know who can really understands me well...

seriously if I ask do u think I should go on to study Degree...

will u tell me ITE results is just a history, don let it blind the things in front of me...

or

will u tell me ITE results is the hard work & effort that leads me to where I am today...

???????????????????????????

2010-01-15T17:34:00.002+08:00

since that day I took a cab off...
I know things will not be the same.....
things have changed rapidly.....
but the feelings has never changed at all......

2010-01-14T18:19:00.003+08:00

had marketing lecture just now......

how can 2 lecturers have the same teaching style, same temper..?
lols.
came across dis marketing lecturer who's gonna relieve us permanantly.
totally imagining she's Ivy twin.....
hahas.

I try to keep my feelings for u as a Big Brother......

2010-01-14T11:22:00.001+08:00

morning~!

after knowing the exam timetable.....

I was like particularly dreaming away....
going to Sentosa Resorts hotel to mug during CNY....

wanna go library during CNY but it won't open :(

2010-01-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

thanks god 8am lessons are finally over for the week~!
=D

exams are approaching on the 19 Feb....
1st paper will be Marketing....
followed by MacroE, Stats, den Accounting....
gonna make notes real soon...

talking of making notes...
will always thanks someone who crossed into my mugging period for the past 1 year...
1 year may seems short...
but it really woke me up...
flashing back asking myself...
won't it be better to study that way since pri sch onwards for damn good grades?

so yea... THANKS REALLY....

studying whole lecture book is like shit.
thanks for teaching me to dig out everything from lecture book/slides.
putting everything into 10 pages or so....
don hv to flip so much like one mad charbor...

***************************************************************

exams are approaching...
Ni Men Zai Na Li?

my motivation...

gone.

2010-01-12T17:40:00.003+08:00

hi.

morning BSA lesson 1st half was fun~!
LOLs.
got entertained by left-front classmates ard me.

hahahhas.
donno why~
it all started when we tried to called Dr Sam for "help"...
but turn out he don see us...
as if we are invisible :(

den suddenly donno how even xue ru also can tell us...
preferably if can, have the Q number system installed Better...
like clinic/hospital~ LOLs.
den I bio-ed at the digital clock...
thinking if that can be converted to Q system.

hahahas.
den as combined with my imagination of the reception bell ding ding ding...
all these crazy imaginations made me & shan LOL for 15mins or so~

and plus shan's imagination...
donno wad is Dr Sam doing with the Heucampus...
end up came up imagining he cannot "control"....
random laughs again.

guess morning everyone was like having a major brain jam :/

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hmms attended accountancy lecture.....
followed by MacroE......

I survived a tuesday again......
hahaha.
cos I seems to skipped Macro alternately week...
last week zao liao.
dis week cannot zao...

anyway Macro was interesting today~!
I mean the monetary topic......
very OKAY & NO BORED for pple like me who like to explore alot on Banking service.....

really...
if not I won't have studied Banking & Finance as an elective back in College East.
lols

2010-01-11T13:05:00.001+08:00

now in class having stats tutorial...

ltr still got macroE tutorial...

hais...

am I able to make it home at 5:30pm?
wanna watch mie Ai Qing Ling Du C...
:(

2010-01-06T21:32:00.004+08:00

looking back...

I think I miss performing music....

kinda miss those times with the bananas. (2001-2004)
kinda miss those times with the strawberries. (2005-2008)

haha.
I am talking about color of blazers.......
XD

2010-01-06T19:37:00.002+08:00

haha.

sch started again on monday~
alrites.
I sounds like a total new semester.... -.-"

but den actually nothing's new~!
don hv to buy new books......
don hv to change class yet *horrible in 4mths time*

everything was as usual.......
but actually on Monday...
the funny sia...

the 1st thing tt came across my mind is "new students"
but it nvr came across that I am a year 2 student...
yah so think really hard again...
if there's "new students" ard I won't still be in year 1 le...
*I woke up le*
hahahas.

****************************************************************

anyways had stats theory presentation on monday.
pretty alright I guess...
almost got screwed up....
as Isaac was under observation.......
so presented to a lecturer who has nvr taught us before......
if given a choice rather present to Badri.....
like abit boh gan wan present to someone we donno.....
LOLs.

tuesday (ytd) was much more normal......
smoked through for access le....
now left excel.
finally tt Dr Sam warn us something abt the coming excel test....
hmms I DON WANT TO REMODULE :(

attended accountancy lecture......
but skipped macro....
as I was really too sleepy @_@
so went outside to "meditate" with shanshan. LOLs.

as "meditating..."
was thinking that really hope to be with same class as sweetie shan next year~
really...
think besides her....
no one can really lingo with me by skipping lessons. LOLs.
but seriously will really miss her as classmate.
geez *shy*

den today got no lesson due to open house preparation.
same goes for tmr and fri~

thinking back really funny.....
nvr did I thot I will end up in nyp...
as for the past few years been going to tp & sp de open house....
den nyp de nvr go before...
but miraclely end up at there.
funny horz?

hais.
that's all for today~
lei le.....
hahaha

2010-01-02T22:07:00.008+08:00

COUNTDOWN 2010 FIREWORKS

2010-01-01T19:09:00.002+08:00

hihi.

for some reason, I am feeling happy now~! ^^

hahahas.
my CE Pipa senior finally chat with me on msn~! =D

like ohmygeez.
really miss those CO practises/outing/dinner with them!
is always so funny with her n double bass senior ard~!
always carry along an INVISIBLE gun shooting craps ard~
whahahahas.

seriously, hope to meet up soon~!
like wad my senior say we will keep in contact & meet up some day~
I also understand why studying poly is so busy now.
totally no life at all~ hais....

anyway some part of the conversation was really humourous!
that I can't stop myself laughing into my lappy screen~ LOLs

senior: maybe when I g0 AMK Hub, I go find u
NYP near there, hehe
can shop shop ard n eat ard

me: LOL~ can take #22 from tampines....
whahaha

senior: wah, cann0t will faint
i tried b4.. wanna vomit
haha
dunno how e bus uncle survive
e long driving trip.. shaking all e way

me: lols. yar lor salute them

senior: Lolz

me: maybe they close eyes drive also can

senior: wah
den confirm i go take train lo
they close = we "close" (if u n0e wat i mean O_O)
choy choy touchwood

me: LOL~! yar.. no safe no safe...
take train safer
whahaha

senior: haha
faster abit oso..

LOLs~!
funny dis conversation...
miss the 2 seniors loads mans~
must find one day to craze/crap out!
hahahas.

2010-01-01T02:17:00.003+08:00

hihi.

HAPPY 2010 TO ALL~!
Hahahas.

hmms...
dis year although don really have the new year mood...
but I still went to see the fireworks~! lols.

the poot poot poot poot sound of fireworks was really shiok.
hahahas.

went to watch with CE Chinese Orchestra peeps~
like become a pact to see fireworks every year de 31 Dec liao.
cos last year also same..... hahas.

thanks yeng ling n xiao jing meimei who jio-ed me.
hurhur =D
seriously if nobuddy book me I will still go see fireworks.
but will be at boat quay like national day de. lols

anyways felt better under the fireworks just now.
managed to blow away certain things.
but certain things still can't...
especially my grandma.....
hais....

the only things that bothers me now is...
macro/marketing/efw projects.....

and also schedule for CNY........
Sld I...

stay at home study?

pester daddy mummy for a trip?
*m'sia will do. of cos will pester them for far countries like HK during my march holiday :D*

ok lahx.
stay in SG is not a bad thing.
can sleep/eat/study...

will upload fireworks pics tmr~
lei le...
hahahas.

nites peeps~!

2009-12-26T14:17:00.007+08:00

genting pictures part 2~

looking back to one's past life~

wee clouds~

Fu Lu Shou... *hahahas*

came across dis skeleton at First World....

~The End~

2009-12-25T22:59:00.011+08:00

pictures taken at genting~

x'mas tree taken at Berjaya Time Square~

To Be Continued Part 2 Pictures taken at genting...

2009-12-25T22:22:00.002+08:00

HEYO~!
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL~!!

Hahahas.
was away at Genting since 21st.
and now I am back at this agony place.
lols.
no agony lahx...
but seriously I miss the weather and entertainment there~!
I wanna go again...... :(

~ 21 Dec, Monday ~
- not much things.
- half the day inside uncle's car.
- check in at First World Hotel.
- eat explore eat explore...

~ 22 Dec, Tuesday ~
- eat explore eat explore.
- den went into casino. 1st time been to casino~ so cool lahx~!
- played the 2-cent jackpot machine with RM50. won back RM10 -.-"
- den played the daily lottery with RM30. won back RM12... Lols.

~ 23 Dec, Wednesday ~
- out to KL for shopping~!
- but actually not much to shop one -.-"
- went to Pavilion Shopping Center. bought ANNA SUI Cologne at Parkson. so cool got free hangbag~ and that was the only thing I shopped for during the week. sians... hahas.

- den went to Berjaya Time Square. one part of the mall reminds me of Far East Plaza -.-"
YUPPS, it is all selling shoes, clothes and bags. pple who really loves shopping should go there~

~ 24 Dec, Thursday ~
- explore explore explore...
- explore until a Temple... leaves me with a deep impression of how they enlighted pple about going to hell with some gross... and not to forget... the FLS.... Lols. FLS reminds me of some random joke before I was up at genting~

- went into casino again... hahas. this time round played this 1-cent ZORRO Jackpot machine with RM50. And I striked a big one of 17000 credits which was RM170. So instead of losing, I earn RM120 instead~!

And I can tell u guys I SIMPLY LOVE THIS ENTERTAINMENT SIA! Hahahas. not becos I earned alot from this game. is becos I just enjoyed playing and I understand this one better apart from the 2-cent I played on the 22nd Dec.

So this is MY LATEST ENTERTAINMENT apart from KBOX if sg really has >> ZORRO JACKPOT MACHINE~~ Whahahahas.

~ 25 Dec, Today ~
- check out from First World Hotel.
- half the day inside uncle's car again.
- the end~ hahahas.
- back to reality + agony world.... :(

pictures will be updated on the next post~